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I Found YOU

My dear friend,
thanks for leaving a comment and thus allowing me to find you.
It was a pleasant surprise, one which I wouldn't have a chance to receive if I had not been more kpo :) And as much as my eyes were almost half shut - these days I function like a 27 years old trapped in a 50's body - I read all 2 years odd of entries, some of which are heart-tugging to me.
This is how you feel...? this is how you felt...?

And I have to tell you, never mind that it may be insignificant to you, I'm glad to find you.
Those 6 months in an environment full of gossipy aunties, bitter married women and whatnot would have been so much different without you. You always have something funny to share and the most 'painful' bit was I couldn't literally lol when I came back from wisdom tooth extraction, with stitches in my mouth. And you think it's easy to make someone laugh? It's a gift to bring joy to others. Even if that's how you hide your insecurities - to always laugh it off and hide those true feelings, remember that everyone has his/her insecure moments.

It's disappointing to learn about your obsession with this silly habit BUT it's never too late to change. Get professional help if need be. At least you are aware of the situation, at least there's guilt and signs that you want to be saved. I've uncles who are foolish their entire lives and never want to stay away from such obsession so really, get yourself out NOW!

And those friends who have forsaken you? Don't look back and wonder why... they just don't know what they have been missing.

So, thank you my dear friend.
For making me laugh.
For your concern and advises.
For your trust when you share your stuff with me.
For being there on one of the most important days in my life.
For allowing me to be part of yours.

You may not get much out of our friendship (since I'm not exactly the best of a friend) but if you don't ask for much, always count on me to be there.

And as you have said, have faith... and things will work out just fine.

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