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3 months 4 days

i think of you everyday.
i figured it's because we didn't really have a closure.
i didn't hear your last words, if any.
i didn't see or visit you, for the last time.
i didn't know much about you.
i have never asked you about you, about me, about us.
i don't know if we matter.
i don't know what's your favourite food.
i don't know much.
i hate the way things ended like that.
i don't look forward to your next birthday and the next Chinese New Year just because you won't be there.
i wish I have done more...

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