Two.:.Four.:.Six

It takes two hands to clap. Where's yours? If I keep telling myself the same thing over and over again, I'll convince myself eventually right? I'm thinking too much.... I don't know what I should do, how I should feel but I know I will survive.

Whenever I hear of someone's death, be it a stranger's or someone I know (hopefully not of course), I feel for the deceased and his/her family. It shows how much I dislike this colleague of mine when I heard about his dad's death and felt nothing. Serious. Nothing. No offence to the deceased. May you rest in peace. Perhaps I'm better with "having the right emotion at the right time" now... :) Yesterday's phone call was a good one. Thanks ladies. Looking forward to this Sat.

If you've been focusing too much on yourself or wallowing in self-pity, knowing clearly that your so-called problem is not that big a deal, stop. Look around you. Is there someone who's really having a problem? Have you disregard a friend's problem because you think he/she can get over it eventually or that you think your own issues are more important? No, showing concern can be very simple. A sms, a call, a meet up. It may be insignificant but what harm is there to just try? You won't try, you won't know. You don't bother to find out and observe, you won't know. And who knows, you may lose someone very important, just like that... It's been such an emotional week but I have to be strong, not so much for myself but for the people around me.

Yesterday was one of those really bad days. I thought about a lot of things. Not that I don't on other days but particularly more yesterday. Those words of yours still sting. I guess I'm not gonna be able to take them off my mind or head. Only because they have to remind me not to take things for granted and how scared and lost I was when I thought it's perhaps, really over (maybe I was a little too paranoid but at that point, it seemed like I really did cross the line and there's no turning back); and I'm going to lose what has been so precious to me. You see, when we are angry or sad, it's so easy to overlook the happy episodes, to forget what attracted us to each other in the first place, how we've came this far (although not far far) yet it's so easy to just give up. Just like smashing a glass but to pick up the broken pieces and stick them back? A broken glass, even when pieced together, will never be the same. And I knew, at that point of time, I d...

I have a few things to rush this morning (ha, at least I can be busy with my work too). I have an arguement to settle this morning, brought forward from yesterday. When it's all madness for me this morning, I can still find time to blog. Amazing isn't it? Because if I don't "talk" to someone, I'll break down soon... (hey, at least you're not alone) Perhaps it's really me. I'm just Ms. Wrong. But don't worry, as long as I still want this relationship, I'll try to be someone you want to see. I'll try to make things right. Even if it's not the real me, it's worth trying isn't it? After all, it's better than making both of us unhappy. Over and over again. So, CHEER UP, HS! You've only 1 issue to deal with (how to move on) but have freed yourself from unhappiness and worries caused by other sets of problems. I thought of a few solutions but I need help: 1) Don't try to be funny at the wrong time Help: how do I tell wh...

Mr. Grumpy sure knows how to score points when he bought not 1 but 2 of these. "Please your future mum-in-law can already...future aunt no need la..." my aunt told him. Please whoever is secondary. Yours truly is the MOST IMPORTANT! ********************************************************************************* Our conversation a while ago: Me: If I die first, you won't hear my nonsense anymore and there'll be peace for you Him: If I die first, there'll be no one to love you Win already lo... ********************************************************************************* Mr. Grumpy has been very busy and I was on my own for the past week. My 'wish' has came true since I always asked for 'a break' when we argue. Well, I guess the next time we argue, I'll wish for something else. ********************************************************************************* 7mths old tomorrow.

You know you're getting old and times have changed (quite a lot) when you no longer attend a kid's birthday party at McDonald's; and balloons & party hats are not quite the same as those during "our time". No, it's not my kor kor's party. It's mine! I'm one. I wish to grow up & be as pretty as my mummy and aunties. How? Pretty pose. Check. Be less grumpy. Check. Befriend those who are not as hmm... pretty. Check. (I'm so mean...just kidding ok? I don't want retribution on my kid/s) I guess for a kiddo's birthday party to be successful - reads no. of presents & ang pows, it has to depend largely on his or her parents' popularity. Megan's party should be quite successful. It's moment like this that I wish not to have a kid of my own but to never grow old.

People find it hard to believe that I'm actually not as confident as I look when I tell them so. Do you know I used to get nervous boarding a bus full of people because I imagine everyone staring at me and start judging me? And I used to think the upper deck is for the "cool people". Which is why I'm seldom "up there". Very silly I know. And not very healthy as lack of confidence leads to insecurity - is she better?, she's prettier so why me?, am I really as good as you say I am?; and leads to fear (of loneliness) - begin to find driving alone boring and days without you a little torturing... Perhaps people get married because they cannot stand being apart from each other. And perhaps they divorce because they cannot stand each other anymore.

It's the 3rd time I'm borrowing my uncle's car. And it's also the 3rd time that I lose my way after taking over the car. I'm sorry Ms. Faridah. I should have paid more attention during your Geography class and shouldn't just "tikam" for the map-reading MCQ section. The only consolation is my parking was good this morning.

I like fireworks because they are very beautiful and magical. Watching them close up is even better. I've only done that once but till today, I can still remember the sight. They also remind me of the National Days we spent at my cousins' place in Potong Pasir, where everyone would squeeze at the window to watch the fireworks. It's been a long time... We stopped spending National Day together when the parade was no longer held at the Indoor Stadium and we couldn't see the fireworks. They have shifted. We don't hang the flag. We are no longer that patriotic. But, I still love fireworks. Thanks to HS, I got to watch them again. Nice. So how, you think I can be a great mummy? I've got Mr. Grumpy and now I found little Ms. Grumpy. The surprise party and the people behind it. Not forgetting Mr. Grumpy of course. The chauffeur & photographer. Top down fun. It's been a while. Good form of exercise I would say. You should look at how much we perspired. A not so ...

Yes, I'm letting go. Of you , you and you .