Two.:.Four.:.Six

I just passed my 3rd year in the company beginning of the month and that, being the longest I've stayed with a company, means something to me. I'm not saying I'm 100% in love with my job - I'm difficult to please but that's just another story, but I love it enough to put in the extra hours and my best. Sure, there are pains, uncertainties and crap but which job doesn't? Ultimately, it's the people you work with and the passion you either have or don't for what you are doing. People, ie. colleagues, because well, truth is you face them more than anyone else. Passion. Without it, I don't know how you can survive. Maybe you can because of the money but I believe you'll eventually throw in the towel. And in my case, nope, I'm not well-paid. Yet I still choke up to a few thousand dollars of claims - latest record: S$6800+! Sigh, no time to do my claims.... Anyway, I'm writing these because of a comment made by my colleague recently. ...

Thinking that better days are ahead after one major campaign is naive. There's never the end, never quite better days (at least for now) but always the pressurizing deadlines and sometimes the problems that are not needed. So what? Yesterday after all the madness, discussion, and meeting, I suddenly felt like I was crumbling. Like I was about to give up, to be defeated. Damn, I never quite feel so given how I function most of the time. And so I packed up and left, refusing to send those emails. And as I was walking down to the train station, the frustration was overwhelming. I surprised myself, really. And now, after bitching about it, excuse me while I go send those few important emails.... Such is life and work. %^&%*&*(&()*)(()#*

We really do not know at times. A couple I know who is supposed to get married in two months time, called off the wedding and the last I heard, the guy saw the girl making out with the new guy at our event! They have been together for as long as we work with them, which is 3 years odd and being one of my few friends in KL, I feel sorry for both of them. Sorry for what has happened, that the guy is in so much pain and that the girl may misses a good catch. It may seem quite obvious whose side we are on but I don't want to judge too much because after all, we are just outsiders. And I've only heard mostly from the guy so far. Well, when it comes to the matters of the heart, who are we to judge right? Each of us loves for a different reason. I'm just disappointed that one's love is so fragile at times. Times like this, I'm glad Mr. Grumpy and I had our second chance. Oh well, as cliched as it sounds, if it's not meant to be, it's just not meant to be....

1. Our first love nest will be completed anytime from Oct to Dec this year! Can't wait to start on the renovation, to see its completion and finally move in! But first, which theme should we go with? 2. Korea trip next month. How lucky can we get? Mr Grumpy has a trip the day before and now he has to try his best to come back earlier on the day we are leaving for Korea. No, he MUST come back earlier! 3. Hong Kong trip (again) after Korea's. And there's a surprise within :)

I know I have my quick temper and pissy face to blame.I'm used to the judgement but really? From you and now? Who are you to judge? Who are you to say what has to be done? It doesn't pay to be real yet I don't want to change just because of the few words you said. Seriously, who do you think you are? I may not be the best but I know I will always be better because I care!