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I have this friend, who, whenever we meet on a workday night, is always 2 to 3 hours late because she simply has too much work. I used to wonder why. Like seriously that busy meh? Now I know why. Because I'm becoming her! I lost count of the number of times Mr Grumpy had to wait for me. I cannot remember when was the last time I left before 7pm because I have finished the work for the day and not because I had something more important to attend to and had 'no choice' but to leave. In the past one week or so, I felt very suffocated. And fearful because there seems to be too many things, too little time. I'm scared of screwing things up again, scared that I'm not giving my best. I started to doubt myself. That I'm just bad with time management and that there's someone who can do my job better than I do and I'm just not that someone. I'm probably going crazy. Or I'm probably right. I know I'm not the only one who's busy. Every...

The following Thursday after my screw up, we received news that we are going back to square one. Someone in the team is leaving. And that someone just unfriend me on facebook, ha. Seriously? Not that it matters to me but it just shows what kind of person you are. May the next better player come on board soon! And thank 'you' for doing this so that my screw up seems kinda nothing now.

One of the clips at the event last Thursday died on me. In front of my bosses. The day for me to shine turned into one that I fell hard in front of everyone. It could have been a good one but one grave mistake ruined it all and I had no one to blame (sort of) but myself. Oh well, one's gotta move on eventually so it's a day to remember, a mistake not to be repeated, a lesson for all. March is busy all over again. Two work trips to Philippines and moving. I can't wait for it to end.