Two.:.Four.:.Six

It's been an eventful year. We had our solemnisation on the 3rd day of a brand new year in the presence of our family & some dear friends and have since learnt to adjust ourselves towards a married couple's life. I didn't think it has changed much but as the wedding draws closer, I know there are changes which I have to be ready to accept. It will not be the same as those weekend stays. I'm staying at the furthest part of Singapore for the next 2-3 years. Simple or maybe not that simple things like home cooked meals and household chores' responsibility will change too... Work has been challenging. A lot to do but a lot more to learn as well. I've also been exposed to more opportunities and am certainly looking forward to next year. Health wise I would like to think it's better although I'm still not eating better and not exercising at all. Ha, I didn't even keep to my pre-wedding-eat-less-junk-food regime but would also like to think that I haven...

This year, we have lost some people... 1) Uncle Leslie 2) My grand aunt 3) GV's dad 4) GV's grandma 5) My grand uncle who was killed in an accident on Sunday morning. My mum said he's a very kind man, he doesn't deserve to die this way. I guess no matter who you are, no one can escape the way he or she dies. He has wanted to bring his wheelchair bound wife to our wedding. He didn't make it... I don't know much about him personally but I feel for the family. Rest in peace.

It isn't exactly a romantic one but if you're interested, read on... We met at EPL, the first company I joined in 2006 after graduation. There were more than 100 staff and I've not met him in the first couple of months. All I knew about him was he's someone's (who's also in the company) bf and how she's too good for him. In another word, people were gossiping about him. The first time I officially met him was at someone's farewell party, one which I joined out of obligation and only stayed no more than 30 mins. And she was beside him. We spoke a few words and somewhere duing the short conversation, he revealed his age or asked me to guess. You see, he's 10 years older than me and my PR self back then told me to pretend he doesn't look his age. And so, he took out his IC to prove to me. He must be damn proud I didn't 'believe' him but in fact, I didn't care less. Weirdo I thought. And don't get me started on his Aaron Kwok cent...

Merry Christmas! Counting down to THE day...

Another Saturday has passed... OMG, it's getting nearer!

Damn, nowadays I tend to cry with the wedding couple when they give their speeches, whether or not I know them very well. Kinda like what has it gotta do with me, ha. Because I can so relate to what they say, why they get so emotional, especially when they thank their family. Us Asians are mostly conservative when it comes to expressing our thanks and love and wedding is usually the best time to do so and get choked up with emotions. I'm so gonna cry buckets when it's my turn. I doubt Mr Grumpy will. Although there's a crybaby in him at times, I think he's gonna swallow his tears just so he can act macho. How to cry and still be pretty without messing the make up huh? 3rd Saturday from today!

"I have a lot of bride to-bes here who are very anxious and particular about their hair, skin, wedding and whatnot... You are the most "bo-chap" bride to-be I've seen!" "This (some conditioner) is for you. Can you pls be more diligent and take care of your hair?" Haha... I enjoy being the "bo-chap" bride because stress and pimples are partners in crime for me. One PIMPLE OF THE YEAR on my right cheek is enough so I'm good.

Ha, both years' Christmas I receive what I didn't wish for. Last a Nespresso machine. I don't drink coffee. This Hugo Boss vouchers. What can I buy? The 'lucky' prizes are meant for Mr. Grumpy. Who's the luckier one here? Opposite works for me most of the time.

Life is unpredicatable. Shall not procrastinate that often. November was a crazy month. 1) 16 to 18 November - 'freelance as tour guide' Winners from Thailand. 2) 19 November - SX's wedding Several first time experiences for me... attend my first hen's night, earliest I ever have to be up, joining 11 other girls as jie-meis, driving a Mazda 2 & Toyota Altis & receiving a summon (thankfully it was a warning. Phew...). Hen's night at Broiler where I encountered one cheesy pick-up line! Woke up at 3am to report for duty. Too many cameras thus didn't snap much. At the restaurant. 3) 21 to 23 November - CI event & sales training in KL First work trip made on my own. Lunch with Astro ladies at about 3pm. I was famished by then! From 6pm onwards, I was 'all theirs'. I had a tour at Astro. Studio Cafeteria Their work area. Radio station. It's funny how they treated me like a tourist and asked me to take pix everywhere. And well, I obliged since...

2 weeks ago, we saw him. A very moody man we thought. Every shot taken was one without a smile. It's a happy day isn't it? What happened? Then we were leaving and I saw the bandaged & swollen toe. Maybe that's why the smile was missing I thought. Supposed to give him a ride back to his place but left it to his son eventually. And we saw him again when we left the restaurant. Again, a very moody man standing there. 1 week later we learnt about the accident that caused the injured toe and the seriousness of it. And now he's gone... The photo at the wake... alas, it's the exact face that I remember. And the pain on the family members' faces... What happen to your life and soul after someone close leaves? I can't answer that as yet. What happen to the promises I give my parents? I have to fulfil them. It's a heart wrenching way to end the year. Yes, it will never be the same again but may you find peace within yourself to overcome this grieving period. H...

A year has turned into a month. We're almost there :)

I really have quite a bit of things to share but having a faulty laptop doesn't help. And I can only use my bro's when he's not around or when I'm around. So although I'm using his now, I really don't want to bore you with just text and no pics... Therefore, I'm going to talk about: 1) The wedding 2) KL business trip 3) Family bbq 4) Work and the crappy email server 5) The next month (4 more Saturdays to go OMG) leading to our wedding Soon... Girlies day today and Mr. Grumpy is back tomorrow. We have not spent 2 weekends together but am glad there are activities to keep me busy and entertained.

Lack of sleep. No emails. Flight hoo-ha. Shipment hipcup. Boss who didn't care much. A Friday like this can't get any worse. I hope. Off to KL tomorrow. First presentation on Mon. I need to relax.... and have fun hopefully.

It's so OMGly fast that we are nearing the November wedding. 5 more days! Didn't we just celebrate (last) Christmas and were given the news that someone is getting hitched before me? And soon after, it will be the December ROM. And bam, it's 2 Jan. And the wedding in March, May, October... - from what I know so far. It's been a busy November. 3 days (rather useless) course took away lots of time from work but it did feel good (sort of) hitting the books again, having class assignments, meeting new 'classmates'... Next week will be crazier! And I have to apologise for not feeling as excited as I should be towards the wedding. I guess emotions will sink in on the day itself :) At least the hen's night tonight will be fun? Good luck, SX.

Yes, I'm anal when it comes to certain things. Yet, I can only bitch behind your back.

At times, it's not worth looking forward to. But most of the time, it is.

Going for my first facial later. Don't know what to expect although I was warned about the pain. We'll see.

Sometimes I would think, if we went back to where we were, would I have given us another chance, would we even come this far? And then I would wonder if I or we had tried harder then, would what happened, happened and if it didn't, would it be a different story today? Would we know what we want for you and me? Would we want to carry on knowing how we drive each other crazy (the good and bad way) at times? Would you even have let go then? Would it be you? Would it be me? Well, things happen for a reason isn't it? I think ours is a good one. We had our second chance. Now, we have a future. Together. We still drive each other nuts at times, in a very very bad way and times like that, it's so easy to want to give up. But not everyone is lucky with a third, fourth... chance. And so, we get over our or my (roll eyes) drama, make up and fight all over again, another time. Haha... This is us. 10 years apart, so similar yet so different. What's your story? P.S. We're very f...

1. Screaming and crying from the neighbours EVERY day. The son doesn't know his homework. The dad gets impatient and screams. The daughter whines and usually cries like someone's gonna murder her. And won't stop. 2. I spent 20mins waiting for 43 the past 2 mornings! Shall not repeat stupid mistake again. 3. Randomly took half a day off today, went Chinatown (quite a decent place to shop I think) and came home to be a babysitter and nurse the terrible cramps. 4. Getting wedding card inserts printed for free! Woo hoo... 5. Next weekend is all about food - 23rd dinner with the girlies, 24th food tasting, 25th wedding dinner. 6. I was thinking... if someone were to sponsor me a nose job, I don't mind taking it.

Why am I torturing myself by forsaking my beauty sleep to upload pictures to FB? It's taking forever!

The wedding is just (less than) 3 months away. We/I need to: 1) buy wardrobe 2) settle guest list 3) settle final details with the hotel 4) pack his room (headache) 5) pack my stuff (headache x 2) 6) maintain a healthy diet - shall start in Nov, hehe 7) confirm on the emcees 8) meet up with 'sisters' Is that all? Guess I'll know better after SX's wedding. We have also selected our photos and honestly, I was a little disappointed with them. Thought they would turn out better. Oh well... But there are a few that I love, thankfully. I spent my weekend bumming around and there it goes. Where are we already? *** I remember you were not happy. Isn't it better now?

Time for changes.

Personally, I have not, at least not much, until recently. I imagine that moment... and realise it's beyond what I can imagine. Beyond what I can accept... It's actually scary. How is it like to be dead? Where do you go? What really happens? I believe everyone knows death is something we can't avoid but how many of us can accept that it is coming our way and we will all meet it one fine day?

The 2 surprises were a success! Everyone had so much fun and I personally think it's money well spent. The birthday ladies' look were priceless and it's a memorable day for everyone. 20.09.2009. Picture later because my lappy is very sick :(

I'm not lying. The past week or so has drained most of my energy and by today (I meant Fri), I was completely exhausted and lifeless if not for the upcoming long weekend. Sleep wasn't good too with all the silly dreams. Was kinda blur when I went to the NEL side matter-of-factly instead of NS... - at this point, my lappy died on me. Tried to blog yesterday on the train with my new phone and it didn't work. Well, I bought the same phone as Mr. Grumpy. Coincidentally. And it costs me only $23! But I need a (new) hp porch (wonder if Kate Spade has any suitable :p) and a screen protector. Phone's done and I'm left with the stupid lappy. The thought of it dying on me barely 2 years later make me mad yet I have to fix it somehow. Can't play my duh game, can't surf net, can't watch ANTM.... Actually, I've nothing much to update. My current life is just about my dying lappy, work, new phone (maybe) and perhaps the upcoming wedding dinners. Few more months to...

This is a very special little girl whom I'm sure will shine in future, in one way or another. Simply lovable!

dispensable. And that if I was given up previously, what's another time? I tend to shortchange myself so what's another one?

but priority is to get a pressie for the 3 years old adorable, chatty 'chilli padi'.

Ian Bodhi turns five today. Happy Birthday! *** Does anyone know what's jackfruit in Mandarin?

Town (Orchard) was surprisingly quiet yesterday. To think my mum and I wanted to head down at 10am to avoid the crowd. Of course, with my dilly dally skills, we left almost an hour later. Once again, we didn't get anything except food. And no, miss I-hate-raisins, don't think it's water. I just had Pringles for breakfast. I wonder if these chips are really addictive or people just conveniently find themselves an excuse to not stop eating them. Like, hey everyone says it's addictive so it must be and that's why I can't stop (eating). See, weekends are disgustingly short. It's Sunday already... In fact, almost half of it gone. ***** Need to organise wardrobe a little and 'allocate' dresses for wedding dinners and Chinese New Year. 6 new ones and I still think I have nothing to wear. Did some online shopping and the top that I prefer turns out to be too small. I could still fit in but could hardly sit without showing fats. Actually, I could hardly breat...

I gained 1kg! Yet I still want to eat more... Must be the chocolates, ice-cream, buffet.....

Slept at 230am. Woke up 5hrs later. All because of HK drama. Managed to rush to finish the last episode and got ready for buffet. Raining though, nice weather to sleep in. Missed the bus (as always). Almost got splashed by a car but luckily my reaction wasn't that retarded. Late for half an hour, famished. Thus took a lot from the buffet table. Felt like few months pregnant with that big yet satisfied stomach. Finally satisfied my craving for durian. Talked a lot too. Of jobs, colleagues, bosses, weddings, cars and whatnot. Went Toy 'r us to kill time. Discussed about this year's Halloween.  Not sure if I can make it still having missed the previous two. Mum called to ask if I was going home while we were on our way back. Mum called again when I was reaching to check if I had keys. Told her a firm yes without checking. Realised it's most likely a no when I was approaching the doorstep. Checked bag thrice just to make sure. Then remember I transferred almost everything e...

An innocent " it's over " yet a very true reply from a five year old makes you go awww... and then hmmm... What exactly is really over? The day's over? Tomorrow is another one that awaits you. Exams' over? There's always another one and even after you graduate, there are still plenty of 'tests' in life you need to take and lessons you need to learn. Life's over? Memories linger... Next life begins (if you believe)... So, nothing is really over . There's bound to be something to make you smile, cry and whatnot again. Today is a lousy day and yes, it will be over. But, will there be another lousy day? Of course there will be! So what? Make the best out of each day. Today you fail a test. Will you fail again? Of course you will if you don't study hard. I, for the record, was the WORST Chemistry student in the entire level. So what? I (self)studied hard and scored a B eventually. Today you lose someone dear. Ask anyone and you'll know you...

Just saw a solution from someone's blog - ctrl F5 and no more cannot post pics or cranky blogspot. This person is a genius and my effort in being a kaypo is not wasted after all. Woke up at 415am today left at 5am. Bangkok deja vu? I wish... Event at Pagoh today and it's so much better than the one at Kota Kinabalu. Although I wasn't at Bangkok, I came back with 6 items and $320 poorer! Not from Pagoh though.

I don't consider myself patriotic but I would love to be at the NDP one day. I think I'm one of the last few Singaporeans who has never been to one. I managed to catch the fireworks :) Marvellous sight!

Alrighty, pictures' time! 1. Bangkok trip from 17 to 19 July, Friday to Sunday Despite waking up at 4am, reaching the airport at 5am, experiencing my virgin trip with Tiger, nursing a terrible blistered lip & 3 ulcers, each having her own problems, we were pretty hyped up in the car towards hotel - refer to pic below. Cheap, accessible, decent hotel - nothing much to complain about. Except it's a little dangerous at night because it's situated in some alley. Being socially responsible. Only in the hotel room because it's too suffocating to wear one. If you can see, I wasn't wearing it because it smudged my blusher. Damn bimbotic I know and why wear make-up early in the morning? Because gone are the days that I can live without them and still think I look presentable. Of food. It's strange we didn't have any local thai food... First meal in Bangkok - vegeterian rice at Platinum Mall's food court Dinner at Fuji Restaurant - rather cheap & good! ...

Give in when you're unreasonable & petty? I don't care who you are!

Is it the parents' or the child's doing? It's such a scary sight.

Ate a lot.. haha Watched fireworks - spectacular Back to work tomorrow.

I've made the wrong choice.

I was at the photocopier machine (which is at the other end of the office) and my alarm went off. Strange I thought and I ran from the back to my desk (which is near the entrance). It's the alarm to remind me/us it's the 49th day. Hope you're well...

时间过得好快，明天就是第四十九天。 好像刚发生的事一转眼一个多月过去了。 你，还好吗?

My good friend's baby just celebrated his 1st month birthday and I was told today he has contacted H1N1! I can only pray that he will be well soon. Take care of your health people.

5 more months to a brand new year! Is that fast or what? Went for gown fitting yesterday and well, the wedding gown was looser and evening gown very much tighter. I can't tell if I've lost or gained weight but I would like to believe it's not the latter. That's the thing with off the rack gowns. They are not yours and are subjected to (numurous) alteration. And the 'funny' thing is I have forgotten how 2 of the gowns look like but luckily the same 2 are meant for photoshoot only. Still love the evening gown the most :) Make up artist said I'm getting skinnier - I beg to differ. The lady in charge of my fitting said I have a flat body - yes applies to you-know-where too. The auntie who alters gowns said my height is nice and the evening gown is pretty. Compliments are motivational factors I guess. Perhaps it's their way of encouraging all brides, ha. So, till Monday, I shall try my very best to stay away from the evil food, get enough sleep and pray hard ...

For some strange reasons, I can't upload pics thus no updates on Bangkok trip yet. It was a short but good 3 days break. A simple yet went through quite a number of obstacles trip. Nevertheless, we made it and back with no (touch wood) H1N1; poorer yet happier with new clothes. My buys - 23 tops, 2 dresses, 2 pairs of shoes, 2 pairs of shorts for myself, and things for the Kongs (the most for the youngest one), Yeos (not that much for the one who sponsored this trip), Angs, Yap sisters and the Chin cuties. Not a lot I would say but it made me happy. Happy to buy for others :) Alright, that's for now...

11 June - Mummy's surprise cake. Very adorable aye? A surprise picnic @ Botanical Garden. And a hand made card after picnic. Surprise cake on birthday eve Beautiful flowers on birthday. Another surprise cake from colleagues. Vegeterian lunch before this - yummylicious! Belated joint celebration @ Vivo. First time to Dian Xiao Er and I love it. Probably because I was too hungry? 2 July - dinner at Flyer. Whatever birthday wish(es) you have made, may they come true. More importantly, may all be well and happy.