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Am back from HK. Mr Grumpy got a crowd-shock and is not quite ready to enter the island anytime soon unless we are going to Disneyland. Not like he's into cute stuff too. It was a good trip afterall. Did a little shopping, ate a lot! and the most disappointing thing of all has gotta be the weather. It's barely cold except for one of the nights when I didn't bring my jacket. See, things like that always happen. Anyway, will update with pictures soon :) Feel very tired this morning and I have a meeting at 10am and lunch after. One more day at work before we jet off to Jakarta for 2 days. I hope I'm not coming down with a flu but am merely tired....

I used to have insomnia whenever I'm excited over something eg. first day of school - this stopped after I realised well, school isn't that exciting. To me, sleep is an avenue of escape. Why? Because some people can't (sleep) when they are upset, angry and whatnot. But when I am feeling so, I sleep. So when I lack of it, it's either I'm excited or I'm mahjonging, ha. The more hip term years ago would be partying but that's history. And thus insomnia or lack of sleep is usually a good thing for me. My life is bland now. I've been trying to inject some fun, excitement and differences but have not been quite successful. Just 2 days ago, I was rethinking the idea of getting a Masters. And then getting braces, Invisalign to be exact. Don't get me wrong, these are not impulsive thoughts. But HY said I'm just bored and should just consider being a mum. I know I will be one day, maybe soon. But I'm just waiting for the flat to be here and it's ha...

So CNY has came and gone and how was yours? Thanks to the generous few (parents, in-law, cousin, aunt), we managed to pocket some ang pows. The past week was dull until I received a call on Fri. Am keeping my fingers crossed! Last night was a 6hrs mahjong session and it only got me $14 richer. It was fun still... Next week will be back to where we 买东西，吃东西 and I've just packed my suitcase mentally. I know, Mr. Grumpy can never understand why it's such a big deal to me but I'd rather pack more than less and match everything accordingly. Dressing up does make you feel better don't you think? It's Jakarta after HK and I'm kinda doing the back-to-back trips again with a 2 days gap in between. My first time there so hopefully everything's good. Dinner with family later and the weekend will be over sooner than we thought. Enjoy it!

Everyone says the rabbit year is a good one. And it doesn't seem so for some of us. But we should still be positive isn't it? Had my first lo hei before CNY during a lunch which I shouldn't go but was asked to for some reasons. CNY's eve. Brought dollie along for reunion dinner at my mum's. We had reunion lunch with Ray's family at a restaurant in Jurong and dinner with my family at my mum's. We ate a lot! Although it seems quieter this year, it was nice to see everyone rushing home from work for reunion meals. We are lucky to have this as the CNY ride. Any car is fine because travelling from West to everywhere else is no joke. My auspicious dress for Day 1. S$20+ from KL Didn't take any pictures at my grandma's so at my mum's that is. The Chins visiting, every year without fail :) Hot mama's dress from KL too. S$15! The boys are decked in checkers coincidentally :) My favourite dress for Day 2. S$20+ from KL Dad's birthday celebration ...

Perhaps I care too much and I should learn to let go. Perhaps I need to know that letting go doesn't mean not caring totally. It's just.... How? I've been doing this for the longest time and I don't know how not to care as much. Have I been too involved? I'm so tired. Who says the rabbit year works for the piglets? At least not this week for me.

the pillar in the family at times, holding everyone together. the princess in the family at times, enjoying the best. the elder sister. the eldest, the daughter. but I am only such and there are things that I may not be capable of handling at times. I am only such and sometimes I may fall. And till I really fall, I can only take one step at a time and deal what comes my way.

Someone asked me the question just now and I struggled a little before giving the answer. An answer probably only I will know the real, hidden meaning. Of course, I can pretend to have an answer as such, no hidden agenda but do I want to? No, because I know the truth. Sometimes I look at them and think to myself, they are all I will ever have and yet they are not exactly mine to begin with. It's painful. But I know it's more so for you and you. I'm sorry if these sound too emo during the festive season. But at times like this, I really wish things are different...

Has always been my favourite day. It's like all other gatherings except everyone is dressed nicely :) Plus, today's my dad's birthday. Happy birthday lao pa!

Hong Kong. The last time I was there, I was only 8. I remember... It was raining most of the time and my lips cracked like mad. One of the female tour guides gave me her lip balm. The male tour guide is quite good looking. We went Ocean Park and couldn't play because of the rain. We took picture with the Ah Sir (policemen) and I burnt my socks while trying to dry it by placing it on the lamp. I bought some bicycle keychains for myself and close friends at "women street". I've been talking about revisiting for the past 20years and only got to materialise it by booking ourselves tickets last year. And then the work trip happened :) I had to suppress my excitement and not behave like a village girl landing on HK for the first time. Train from Airport to HK island. Checking into Excelsoir. Got upgraded to the excutive room. And had a view like this! It was cold at night though. Immediately switched on the TV and found one of my favourite TVB drama on reruns. Watched while...